1.30.2011

Musical Mondays: David Duchovny


So I thought I'd be a little silly this week...

David Duchovny by Bree Sharp


So smooth and so smart, he's abducted my heart...

It's nice to know even celebrities get celebrity crushes.

What's your song this week?


Sunday Citar: I Thought I Was The Only One!


"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, "Wait! You too? I thought I was the only one!"
-C.S. Lewis


These two lovely ladies spent a couple hours with me yesterday for pedicures, and then lunch.  These are my awesome coworkers, the very two I am going to New York with in a few months, and I'm excited to see a real friendship blossoming.  The start of our friendship can pretty much be defined by the above quote.

Thanks for a great few hours of a girls day!

1.29.2011

What did I just do? (& Happy List)


I'm happy about this...

I think...
What do you think?


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I'm also happy about my contacts.  People keep telling me how much they like my eyes and being able to see my face without my glasses.

I'm happy for this new blanket my grandma got me. It's so soft...

I'm happy for awesome coworkers and girls days like today.

 I'm happy for cute little bakeries.

I'm extremely happy for the sunny sky, it's made my heart happy all day!

1.28.2011

In Memory of an Amazing Woman

Last night I attended a memorial service for a woman I had never met, or even spoken to in my life. It's strange to think how closely our lives may have touched, as her daughter is one of my most dear friends, yet I didn't meet her until after her death.  Her name was Jodi.

I attended the service to support Meg, who is going through a hard time with the loss of her mother, and who I love very much.  She's become like a sister to me over these last few months, and even more so since she started dating my good friend Jon.  Watching her make the tearful rounds last night, with him by her side supporting and loving her, touched me deeply. (it made me cry a little, I'll admit it-but that's a story/post for another day!)

It was also incredible to watch how the events unfolded at the gathering last night, and I found myself with tear filled eyes on several occasions listening to her close friends and family stand up and talk about this amazing woman, and all of the wondrous things she'd done.  Not only had she raised 3 amazing girls, but she was a mom to so many other people who looked up to her and were utterly changed by her.  Even people she'd never met.

Her daughters stood at the podium and read letters that had been emailed to them from all over the world.  Jodi had been an avid Facebook user, and had joined multiple groups.  There was a framed letter sent from a couple of autistic girls in CO who wrote saying that she had changed their lives.  She helped so many autistic children accept themselves, and she touched so many lives all over the world.  The emails sent to her family after her death were numerous, and each and every one of them spoke of a woman who loved fiercely and advocated being the best kind of human being any of us could hope to be.

By the end of the evening, I found myself deeply grieved that I had never had an opportunity to know this woman, and to have my life bettered by her love as well.

However, I count myself very lucky that I get to know and love her through her daughter, who is an amazing person because of this amazing woman.  That is something I count myself very blessed to get to experience. I am so glad to have Meggy in my life!

The roommate and I were discussing is the fact that there were so many people who stood up and spoke about her. These people had known her and her children their whole lives.  He said to me "Can you imagine being there throughout our whole lives? Through weddings and having babies and all that stuff?" I responded "Do you have any doubt that we will be there to stand up at one or the other's funeral to tell stories like that?" We both sat and thought about it in amazement.  I pray that when I die, there is a bunch of people to stand up at the podium and speak with love about knowing me, and tell stories of our youth together, and reassure my children that they were deeply loved.

Since last night, I have found myself thinking about this a lot.  It reminds me of a quote by Mark Twain:

"Let us endeavor so to live that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry."

Jodi certainly did.  If someone like me, who had never met her, can feel such loss at having her taken from the world-I'd certainly call that a successful life.  I want to live like that, and can only strive to follow in those footsteps.

Thank you Jodi, for being the amazing woman you were and touching so many lives, even those of us who never knew you. Also, thank you for raising such an amazing friend for me, I don't know what I'd do without her.  You will be missed.



And for all of you friends and bloggy buddies; I am truly grateful for you all.  Jodi taught me that every single relationship counts for something, in face-to-face life or online, and her memory reminds me that I need to tell you more often. You are all such a blessing to me!

1.27.2011

Take Responsibility for YOUR Feelings


Looking back, I can't remember what it was that certain people did to me to make me dislike them, I only know that I do-because of the way they made me feel by whatever it was.  

For example: So-and-so made me feel small and unimportant; he whittled away at me with his cunning whit and sharp tongue. He told me I was a child, and then proceeded to scold me as if I were his.   Is it any wonder why my initial reaction when someone says his name, or mentions I'm going to have to be in the same room with him is resentment?  That my tone changes when I talk about him, filled with scorn-even when I don't particularly feel angry at him?

With that same logic, doesn't it stand to reason that certain ways I may have made people feel will forever haunt them about me? I don't think I've ever meant to hurt anyone in my life, it's not in my nature, but I'm completely sure there have been occasions when I have misspoken or done something accidentally which may have left a lasting scar on someone.  Made them feel a way I would not have wanted them to.

Well, that kind of sucks-to put it bluntly.  I guess it goes along with the same thought about first impressions being the lasting idea of someone... It's not often you get a second chance to leave an impression on someone who did not like you to begin with, however it's all-too-often that you leave a good first impression and then screw it up later on down the line-never to be repaired.

On the other hand, can you really blame anyone but yourself for how YOU feel?  So-and-so may have influenced it by saying hurtful things or beating me down with his words, but in the long run isn't it my decision to still let him influence my mood when he's around?  Isn't it my decision to be affected by something so stupid, and to still feel it even to this day?  So following that logic-if I accidentally hurt someone (no malicious intent required) isn't it on them how they feel?

My conclusion?
No, you should never intentionally try to hurt someone.
You should love madly and remind people how special they truly are to you.
However, no one is perfect.
You're going to unintentionally hurt people, it's part of being human.
There are occastions where you have to hurt someone, to save yourself.

Take responsibility for YOUR feelings.

Don't spend the rest of your life blaming someone else because you're sad.
If they hurt you, they're not worth the time it takes to think about it.
So if you keep thinking about it, it's your own fault.

Mama's Losin' It

1.26.2011

Wordless Wednesday: Bug-Eye


Liss, Kristi and I sporting our Bug-Eye glasses.
I just got contacts, so I'm finally able to wear sunglasses again!
Aren't we cute?







1.25.2011

I Blame Death.

Wow, I'm feeling a little blog-blocked lately.  
I stare at the screen and have no idea what to write about, even within the Meme.  It took like 2 hours to decide what song to use for my Musical Mondays yesterday, which is weird because I generally have a million songs that I'm madly in love with and want to share.  I'm just at a loss.

I blame death.
My very dear and loved friend lost her mother this weekend.  It was sudden.  She was at my house hanging out with my roommate (I was elsewhere) and just got a phone call saying her mother had collapsed.  She rushed to the hospital where the doctor said it had most likely been instant.  It was a heart attack-incredibly sudden, as she was likely gone before she even hit the floor.

I can only imagine how my friend must feel.
To lose your mother is a very hard thing, especially when she's so young.  My heart breaks for her, her sisters, and her father.  Their loss is something that I don't even want to contemplate.  I want to run to her and help in someway-but she's fiercely independent. All I can do is send love, and go support her at the memorial party they're having Thursday night.

To top it all off, her aunt had just died and had her funeral the week before. :(

That's not the only instance of death recently.
My boss' very close friends just had a horrible tragedy.  They didn't know that the two year old had gotten out of the house, and the mother accidentally backed over the two year old in the minivan.  She didn't survive it.  The mother is prone to miscarriages, and they had to heavily sedate her so she wouldn't lose the baby in her grieving.  My boss posted something on facebook and said to  "Please send prayers to the family" and she left a comment saying she couldn't eat or sleep, all she wanted was her baby back.

It completely ripped me open.
I can't imagine ever having to go through that, and on some level I think I'd probably rather commit suicide than live with the guilt (even though it was an accident-and I know that's not the proper response to the situation) because it is something that wound haunt me forever.  It wasn't her fault, but no mother is going to listen to that-we as human beings have such strong consciences, and the guilt level with anything with your children is high-let alone losing one in such a way.  It's also very sad that she may not get to grieve as much as she needs, because she has to be strong for her other children.  That poor woman.  I just want to hug her and help her feel better.

Read the article on this tragic accident HERE.

This whole thing has me in some kind of funk.
Life is so incredibly short, and we don't often times tell people often enough how much we appreciate them, or how much they mean to us-and then they're gone.  They're gone, and I don't want to be left there with a handful of "could've, should've, would've-s" and a heart full of regret. Regret for all of those times I could have pulled my loved ones in for a tight hug, but let it slide.  For all those times I should have said "I love you." instead of getting angry, or not calling because I hate the phone, or be left thinking "I would have, had I had the chance."

I do have the chance.
I'm going to be better at telling everyone in my life just how much they matter to me.  I want them to feel how special they are, so that if I die tomorrow-they know they were loved, and (god forbid) one of them dies unexpectedly, I don't have to feel guilty-I can grieve and miss them. I pray that I don't have to go through that, that no one I love does, but sometimes it happens-and that's part of life.  Part of Life; not part of death.  We need to remember to live,and to love fiercely and fully.

I love you all.
You have no idea how much you mean to me.
Each and every one of you.


1.24.2011

Musical Mondays: Shadow of the Day




This weeks song:
(Sorry it's late today)

Shadow of the Day
By Linkin Park



What's your song this week?

1.21.2011

Friday Confessional

I confess
Being featured as the Queen of the Day yesterday totally made my week.  It reminded me how blessed I am to be part of an amazing blogging community which is filled with such love and support. If you haven't read the post yet, please run on over and leave Mamarazzi a comment thanking her for giving me such an awesome opportunity, if you do, she'll be sure to email you a response-so enable your email!  While you're there, you can follow Dandelion Wishes and even apply to one day be the Queen of the Day yourself! It's amazing I promise.

I confess
I have done really well on the diet and exercise this week.  I'm feeling awfully proud of myself. I've been eating right and I worked out every day this week (all 5 days that I promised myself I would.) I really think it's going to work this time because it isn't that I want to lose the weight, it's that I must lose the weight.  So it feels very natural, like I have no choice but to be successful.  This is good.

I confess
My biggest weakness in this whole getting healthy thing is drinking water.  Surprisingly, the no soda and no candy thing has been really easy.  Drinking the appropriate amount of water-not so much.  No wonder I've been getting some headaches... I am going to work harder on that!


I confess
I have the biggest crush on my Irish coworker that comes to visit every now and again.  For real.

I confess
My coworker and I have plans.  We're going to find Irish Husbands and get citizenship so we can still work for our same company in Ireland.  Isn't that a fabulous idea?  My other coworker asked above referenced super cute Irish manager if he had a list of recommendations for us, and he said "Well, my entire L1 team is single..." LOL!

I confess
I saw Black Swan last night, and am a little disturbed that part of me relates to her intensely.  It was AMAZING though, thank you Sophia for recommending it to me!

I confess
I feel so much better now that the sun is shining outside! As if I ever doubted my being affected by the seasons...

What do you need to confess?


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1.20.2011

Queen For The Day


Look who's queen for the day!
ME!

See my royal court?



Mamarazzi is SO sweet!

Click HERE and run on over to see her post about me!

Also, readers of mine, make sure to leave her a comment thanking her for the honor!
I am so blessed to have such great bloggy friends such as you all.
Much love!

1.19.2011

New Celebrity Boyfriend

Yes, I have a new Celebrity Boyfriend.

Isn't he cute?


Currently watching the 3rd season of The IT Crowd.

He's such a doll. ♥

Wordless Wednesday






1.18.2011

Tinted

© Me

This is my darling and beautiful little cousin Brianna who I used to Nanny for.
I took this at the Wild Animal Park in San Diego.
It is still one of my favorite photographs of all time.
Isn't she beautiful?

This week's theme is ::Tints::

RTT: Meth Makes You Skinny


As far as my six week challenge goes, I'm two days in and so far have done very very well.  The hardest part for me is drinking water (which needs to be added to the challenge) and getting up early to work out.  The water bit hasn't been as much as I need, but the working out has happened.  I am SO SORE! Ouch! 

Also, I hate Julian Michaels.  I'm pretty sure I've said that before.  She may be a complete genius when it comes to working out (thus why I tolerate seeing her on my TV every morning) but man is she annoying to listen to.  

Josh and I saw a commercial for physical trainers on TV. This little blonde girl shrilled "I love being a physical trainer because my clients want to be around me!"  I just looked at him and said "I'm glad she's not my trainer.  No fat girl wants to be told how to lose weight by a skinny blonde bimbo with a high pitched voice."

Speaking of Josh and I.  We have the most hilarious conversations.  Or at least we like to think so.  They carry on as if they are completely dead serious, until we break out into laughter at how ridiculous it gets.  Check it out:
  • Josh: Doctors used to prescribe Meth for weight loss actually.
  • Me: Oh yeah? If I started taking Meth I'd be skinny and the house would be clean!
  • Josh: But then you wouldn't have a toothbrush.
  • Me: But then I wouldn't need a toothbrush!
I suppose it's not the greatest thing in the world to have a daily calendar with cupcakes on it while you're dieting.  But I can't help it, I just love everything to do with cupcakes...

I got the beanies for my four winners from the last giveaway in the mail today.  Jessica, Jenny, Brandy, and Felicia-you should all have them by Friday at the latest. :D

Don't forget the giveaway coming up February 2nd - 6th.  I'm so excited to do another!



If you want to learn more about why I'm hosting that giveaway, and the blog hop it's associated with, click on the button below-you can even sign up to participate-it's going to be so fun!

Teaser Tuesday: Psychological Tumors

 "Writing isn't a source of pain. It's psychic chemotherapy. It reduces your psychological tumors and relieves your pain."


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1.17.2011

Musical Mondays: Jar of Hearts


This week's song:

Jar of Hearts
by Christina Perri



Lyrics | Jar Of Hearts lyrics

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Don't worry, I didn't pick this weeks song because I particularly relate to it.  I mean I do relate to it, or have in the past rather, but I'm not feeling it now.  I picked it  because it's beautiful.  Her voice is gorgeous and I have been listening to it a lot in the car so I can sing along.  I love it.

I hope you enjoy it too, and I can't wait to see what songs you've picked this week-so link up! 

1.16.2011

Six Week Challenge (For Myself)

As of Monday, January 17th I am embarking on a new journey.  I'm challenging myself-and changes are going to happen-I MEAN IT!


For the next six weeks I will:
(That's until Feb. 26th)

Diet:
  • Give up all Soda/carbonated sugary beverages. (Already Started)
  • Give up candy.  I can eat home baked goods (on occasion), but no candy.  I'm hoping that by the end of these 6 weeks I wont even want it anymore.
  • Give up liquor/booze.  Those things are HIGH in calories. If I drink-it's only wine.
  • WAY less dining out.  We're going to cook healthy food.
  • Eat under 1400 Calories a day.
Exercise:

Starting the 30 day challenge again, but instead of making it 30 consecutive days-I'm only doing it Monday through Friday and making it the 6 week thing.  Each level of the workout will be 2 weeks (since each one is 10 days) and it will give me a little break on the weekends.


My goal is to lose 20 pounds before March 16... Which is when I go to New York! I am SO excited!

Anyone want to join me?

 

Sunday Citar: A Girl Is


"A girl is innocence playing in the mud, beauty standing on it's head, and motherhood dragging a doll by it's foot."
-Allan Beck

1.15.2011

Enable Your Email :)

Hello lovelies! 

I hope you're enjoying your weekends.
I sure am! (Can it be the weekend forever???)

Anyway, just a quick little note.

Mamarazzi, being the genius that she is, brings up a valid point.


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That way, I can respond to your comments via email.
Fantastic, no?

Mucho Loveage, all you wonderful people. :)

1.13.2011

20 Ideas to Make 2011 The Best Year Ever

#1
Fall in love all over again with everything.
With every friend, stranger, blade of grass, face, or memory.
Fall in love for the first time with that special someone,
or fall in love all over again with your lifelong partner.



#2
Smile every time you walk by someone.
Whether it's your best friend, your worst enemy, or a stranger.
Making their day will in turn, make yours.
You never know who's life you'll save.



#3
Chase those dreams you've been putting off.
Go back to school, write that novel, apply to that dream job, travel the world, etc.
You'll never know unless you try, but until you do-it will never happen!


#4
Take a vacation.
We work so hard sometimes, and forget to treat ourselves.
We are slowly working ourselves to death.
Get out, soak up the sun or hide away in some far off land.
It'll make all the difference.


#5
Document your world.
Years later each photograph will remind you of the times you had.
Especially someday when your memory starts to slip!


#6 
Write it Down
Blog it, write it in a journal, just write it down.
Not only is it cathartic to get it out, but it will be great to read someday.



#7
Take up a new hobby.
It's always great to learn something new, and apply it.
My current favorite is crocheting, and I plan to make it a skill this year.



#8
Take a nap every once in a while.
Is there anything better than napping in a ray of sunshine?
Curled up with your favorite pillow in it's soft warmth?


#9
Read every chance you get.
You can lose yourself in another world, and it broadens your mind.
This is one I plan to work on a lot this year!
I challenged myself to read at least 15 books this year.
(which is significantly smaller than I used to, but with my busy schedule...)



#10
Surround yourself with as many good people as possible.
Spend as much time with your loved ones.
You never know if this could be your last year, they make it the best!



#11
Take time to commune with nature.
Whether you meditate, or just sit and think, it has an amazing relaxing affect.
Go camping, hiking, or just lose yourself in the grass in the back yard often.



#12
Treat Yourself.
Every once in a while you just have to eat that cupcake.
Or you just have to take yourself out to dinner.
Or buy yourself a pretty dress.
It's important.



#13
Leave someone love notes.
IT doesn't have to be a lover, it could be a friend or your mom even.
Just remind them why you love them, why they're awesome, etc.
It can even be anonymous.
They're happiness is sure to make you happy.





#14
Eliminate the Drama.
That stuff seriously drags you down.
I try to cut out drama, and people who cause drama.
I'm pretty sure we could all use a drama-free year!





#15
Find a new stess management tool.
Instead of letting it build up when you're stressed,
Bake (I do!), exercise (I should do!), etc.



#16
On that note: Excersize.
This is a big one for me this year. 
It does so many good things, and makes you feel so much better.
Take up yoga, running, join a gym, anything! 

A healthy exercise routine will make the year a good one.





#17
Take your vitamins.
We don't get nearly enough of what we need from our food these days.
Everything's processed, and half the nutrition is lost.




#18

Let go of the past.
What's done is done, and it cannot be changed.
You'll never be free to live if you're always chained down by past hurts.
Regret nothing, just move on and live life today.
No more what ifs, it's over and done with.





#19
Be Yourself. Love Yourself. Forgive yourself.
Forgive yourself for everything in the past, it's the past.
There is only one you.  You need to learn to love it.
Don't let anyone change who you are, be true to you.


#20
Live like you've never lived before.



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