My So-Called Chaos: Musical Mondays: F*cking Perfect

1.10.2011

Musical Mondays: F*cking Perfect

After a few week break, Musical Mondays is back!

It's also the first Musical Monday of the year!

Being the first Musical Monday of the year, I figured I'd start us out with a bang!
I'm not going to defend myself for the word usage in this song.
Sometimes it's necessary in order to truly portray how we feel.

Fucking Perfect - P!nk

♥ ♥ ♥

My roommate found this new P!nk song and introduced to me (I have a HUGE love for P!nk) and he played it for me. I felt two things simultaneously when I heard it the first (and second) time, sitting side by side with him listening to it loudly over the speakers.

First, it came to me that this is how I had always felt about him, especially when he belittles himself and doesn't see how truly amazing he is. He IS amazing, and in my opinion-fucking perfect.

Second, I tried to apply the song to myself. I've been really hating on myself lately. I'm the biggest I've ever been and every time I look in the mirror, or zip up my pants, I keep thinking "You suck, you're so fat, I hate you." Or some variation of those things. I have lost the confident me who loved myself no matter what-I am trying to eat healthy and lose some weight, but not seeing any difference at all-as I haven't the other times I've tried. I can't help but hate myself, and thoughts of completely giving up on everything haunt the back of my mind.

Yes, I'm upping my dosage of St. John's Wart-and going to keep trying to lose weight and eat healthier. It's the only thing I can do, short of throwing myself off a bridge. So I'll trudge forward, and keep trying to apply this song to myself. It may take some time, but I'm working on it...

As for all of you, you should listen and apply too...

You are all fucking perfect to me.

So...

Pretty pretty please

Don't you ever ever feel

Like you're less than
Fucking pefect.

Pretty pretty please
If you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect
To me.