A Letter to someone who received a second chance.
I don't hate you for it, I'm not even mad any more, just thinking back on choices and mistakes and re-teaching myself not to make the same ones over and over again. If I can get to the root of the problem, maybe I can weed it out and stop it from ever growing again.
Dear DF,
You were the first person I ever gave a second chance to, and I swore you'd be the last. Unfortunately to me I never stuck with that rule, but I should have. Everyone I gave a second chance after that only repeated the same steps, as you had before, and as I should have remembered when debating whether they got a second chance or not.
You were so lucky to get a second chance, and yet you still screwed it up. I was young and naive at the time, only 19 or 20... It was a tough lesson to learn with the first person you ever loved. At least I can say when you asked for a third chance I was smart enough to not go there, I would have hated myself even more should I have allowed it.
I don't hate you for it, I'm not even mad any more, just thinking back on choices and mistakes and re-teaching myself not to make the same ones over and over again. If I can get to the root of the problem, maybe I can weed it out and stop it from ever growing again.
I really do hope your life goes well and you get everything working for you. It's a little sad that we can't be friends now, not because of animosity (you are my friend on Facebook, just not in real life) but because I can't handle the drama. I can't hear your suicide attempts anymore. I can't handle it when you say "I wish I'd never let you go" because I am so completely grateful you did.
Peace and blessings old friend.
Have you ever given anyone a second chance?
This: I can't handle it when you say "I wish I'd never let you go" because I am so completely grateful you did.
ReplyDeleteTHAT, my dear... is true healing. I know it's been a while but I hope to be in those shoes someday :)
Good letter. I hope that you are able to learn the lesson here. People who hurt you and then ask for the second chance are not asking for YOU but are asking to appease their own guilt. It has taken me a long time to figure that one out. They can't change. They just want that second chance to feel better about themselves. Unfortunately, what happens is they just end up hurting you all over again. So, there is a lesson here. You will know that you have learned it when you can say "no."
ReplyDeleteI agree with the above noter. Some people, some things never change.
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