Ostara/Spring Equinox

Well it's the first day of spring, and I find myself in a much better mood today. The sun is shining, there's nothing but blue in the sky, and I had a very good conversation with [womanizer] last night. When I got off work, I texted him and told him that I was feeling really terrible, and I would really appreciate it if he called me. He called around 11:30pm when he got off work, and we talked for an hour. In that amount of time I spilled my guts and opened up all of my emotions to him, and then asked him if he forgave me at all. He told me "I forgive you a little, but you still owe me." Get this - I responded with "Well, what if I told you I was prepared to spend the rest of my life making it up to you?" To which he responded "I think I'd be ok with that." WOW! A little scary, and when I told Matthew about it, his jaw dropped and he said "I can't believe you said that and I can't believe he said that back!" It's kind of crazy.

Also, Happy Birthday Amber! We all love you, and we're lucky to have a friend like you!
On a different note, my thoughts and prayers are out to Josh today. He's headed down to St. George to be with his family because his grandfather is dying. You can read his blog about it here: La Vie & Times de Josh: Death and Love. I know how hard it is to lose a grandparent, two years ago I lost my great grandfather Orson Leavitt (who I was close to) and benefited greatly from the support of my friends. Melanie Grace actually came with me to the funeral and I really appreciated it. Just last August I then lost my great grandmother Bernece Leavitt (also close) and it was hard to deal with without a friend. In any case, I wish I wasn't working today because I would offer to go down for support, because I know how much it can help to have an outside friend who doesn't need you to console them there to help or to listen, and to just be there to support you.

I'm sending you love and light Josh, please don't hesitate to let me know if you need anything at all, and call/text me if you need to talk or just need someone to listen. I'm here for you, and will be for whatever you may need me for.