Send Me the Moon (MM)

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This week's song:

Send Me the Moon

By Sara Bareilles
From the album: Kaleidoscope Heart

Holdin' my breath

Last one I've got left

'Til I see you

Deliver my heart with the pieces and parts of me left

Every last day seemed to carry the weight of a lifetime

Watch from the ground as the gold fluttered down from the sky

Sweet sun

Send me the moon

Empty the skies out

Bringing me one step closure to you

Send it soon

And I will breath in, breath out, 

'Til you come in and out of view

Of view

Inches away from you scared what I'll take from you darlin'

I could live with your ghost if you say that's the most that I'll get

Darkness to light move from day into night to be near you

Still here I stand, I am sinking like sand in your see

Sweet sun

Send me the moon

Empty the skies out

Bringing me one step closure to you

Send it soon

And I will breath in, breath out,

'Til you come in and out of view

Oh you already do

Never you mind where the evening shall find us together

Distance can't take what is hidden here safe in my chest

Wait for the day when we finally say "Now, or never."

'Til then I'll be here wanting more as I settle for atmosphere

Sweet sun

Send me the moon

Empty the skies out

Bringing me one step closure to you

Send it soon

And I will breath in, breath out,

'Til you come in and out

I will breath in, breath out, 'til you come in and out

I will breath in, breath out, 'til you come in and out

Of view

Of view

***

Ahhhh I'm a sap, and I'll fully admit it.  Sara Bareilles is one of my favorite singers, this song is one of my favorite songs, and this album one of my all time favorite albums.  I've listened to this song several times before but it never really connected with me quite like it does now.  There's that element of waiting to see one, of the time it's taking and each day you're hoping that they'll go by faster until you are physically with that person-it's romantic and frustrating.  It gives me something great to look forward to, and even if it's not an ideal situation, I plan to enjoy every minute of it.

On another similar note... I'm talking to the bosses today about getting time off and then I'm buying plane tickets! Exciting!  When I asked him "Is November too early to come visit?" He said "Tomorrow is not too early."  Amazing.  He never says the wrong thing.

What are you listening to this week?

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I Confess: Whatever Will Be Will Be

I confess that the last week and a half or so has been one crazy ride.  I met a boy at Bingo. We flirted, I found stalked added him on Facebook and he was glad I did.  We chatted, exchanged numbers, and then he took me to dinner and the theatre.  

Since then we've been out several times, and he's spent the night a few too... Through it all he's always been a perfect gentleman. He opens the doors, he pays (even though he doesn't have to), and he always seems to say the right thing.  I am in awe.  And a bit smitten.

I confess that there is a catch.  He is moving to the Oregon coast this weekend. I knew this from the start and never really expected to get caught in this whirlwind romance and get attached so fast.  In a way having that expiration date looming was a good thing because I never hid my crazy.  Why should I?  He wasn't staying, so if I scared him off then it wouldn't make much of a difference.  I laid it out on the table and was the most me I could be.  He liked ME: crazy and with all my clutter.

I confess that I've found myself in tears more than once over the timing.  I can't help it.  It doesn't help that I'm listening to A Fine Frenzy at the same time... Melancholy rainy days just bring out the oh-so-sweet sadness that makes me want to wallow in it. In spite of that, I never once doubted that I was going to be okay, or that it was more than worth it for all the awesome memories we have made in such a short time.  

Yesterday I confessed exactly how I was feeling and how heartbroken I was that he's leaving so soon...  I confessed that I'd never ask him to stay but I very much wished he wasn't going, and that we could see where this would lead.

Most men would have bolted.  Well, most men wouldn't have come this far in the first place.  They would have gotten in my pants and moved far away without another thought.  Through it all he's wanted to get to know me.  He's wanted to make sure I was okay.  He has said to me "And how do you feel about that?"  And I have answered honestly.

He confessed that he was trying not to be angry because I was making him question his choices to leave.  I confessed I was glad that I wasn't alone in feeling this way.  

We decided that while we don't have faith in long distance relationships (so we wont tempt fate), we're both willing to be something more than friends and keep getting to know each other,  to visit each other, and to see if our timing ever lines up and we land back in the same place.  We're going to let it be what it will be, and we will either naturally grow apart with the distance or naturally come back around to each other again.

I confess that even though I am the most impatient person I know, I am excited to see where the ride takes us-and I'm not even going to try and read the last page first.  

Que sera, sera

Whatever will be, will be

The future's not ours to see

Ques sera sera

Whatever will be will be...

Literary Friday: The Perks of Being a Wallflower

If you've read any of my goals for the last few months, you might know that finishing The Perks of Being a Wallflower has been on my list for quite some time. It's a good book, and it's not like it didn't engage me-I just get busy and forget to sit down with it.  I've been packing it around this week to read it, and last night when my thoughts were keeping me awake, so I finished it.

I first learned of this book after reading a few of the quotes from it.  It's a very quote-worthy book with some very good insights as you follow the main character through his letters and growing up.  Here are a few of  my favorite quotes from the book:

"So this is my life.  And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad, and trying to figure out how that could be."
I wrote about this one here.

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Everywhere I took this book, or talked about this book, people kept telling me how much they loved it.  After finishing it last night, I was left a little unsettled and questioning why it was there favorite.  But perhaps it is because I (and people I know) can relate slightly to this poor kid's trama-so my own personal experience left me unsettled.

It is beautifully written, and I do believe you should read it if you haven't yet.  Now I need to see the movie!